MISSING TV REMOTE BREAKS HEART: A Mum's Grief ~ My IdeaLife

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

MISSING TV REMOTE BREAKS HEART: A Mum's Grief

My little people fixated by their beloved Brum.
We couldn’t find the TV remote to turn off a morning of 'Big Cook, Little Cook', 'Raa Raa, the noisy little lion', 'Show me, Show me' to name just a few. This single small failure was about to set off a tidal wave of emotion. Boom had taken the boys to the park and I was pottering about with the overly-enthusiastic soundtrack of children's shows playing in the background. Then this music came on, it was clever, funny orchestral music used to introduce a small vintage car that happens to be the local superhero in Birmingham, his name is Brum.

Brum has been pivotal in my life as he has captured the imagination of both my boys in a way no other show has. Initially Bang was very taken with 'In the Night Garden', but by the time Crash came along, Brum was and still is the preferred viewing choice of both. Other shows come and go, but Brum fighting baddies, saving kittens and flying through the air to stop out-of-control trains never grows tired.

Brum taught both my boys how to eat, his attention-demanding antics, hilarious music, sound effects and cute storylines allowed food to enter their mouths without resistance. All sorts of healthy items passed their lips as they smiled at Brum.


This cheery little fellow is perfectly designed to make people smile, unfortunately for me, today he has had the opposite affect and I am a whimpering mess. As I leave behind a couple of years of being a SAHM and return to work I now realise that I may never see another episode. I may never be able to watch on as my boys eager eyes take in the action, frowning when there’s danger or smiling at the happy ending. I won’t see them wave at Brum the way the cast do or clap at the end once he’s saved the day. And I will never hear that haunting Oboe trill at the start of a new adventure.

It is the end of an era and I know we will all adjust and get used to seeing each other less but for today I am just going to sit here and cry my eyes out because time moves too fast and I wish I could stay home, me and my little men together forever.


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2 comments:

  1. This breaks my heart because this is exactly how I felt the first time I returned to work after having Boy-Who-Asks-Questions. I spent more time hiding in the toilets sobbing my heart out, than sitting at my desk doing any work. Transitioning back to work is so hard...although it's not really a transition. It's a sudden flip, into a parallel universe. It will get easier. Am so glad you are still blogging. xo

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  2. Thanks Lisa. Yeah I think I am stunned but also finding it really stimulating. Think the tears at work may come...at some stage. Every time I talk about them they are just beneath the surface so try not to talk too much about them! Thanks for the encouragement it is going to be tough to write as much. Once a week will probably be the best I can do. Nic xx

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